Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Being Sad....

This is going to be a sad post, so if you feel you don't want to read it, that's fine.

On February 1st, our DIL, Tammy, called to say our son, Gordon, was in the hospital in critial condition and in ICU. I started for Germany on February 6th, arriving on February 8th, to find our son in very critical condidtion. However, we were told that he would improve....but, the next day he died! Why? Well, last week we received the death certificate and found out that he passed because of Giant Cell Myocarditis. Please don't tell me, this is the Lord's will, I just do not want to hear that. Not now anyway! I am so angry, I could scream and sometimes I do! There are times I am very unpleasant to be around and there are times that Wayne is very unpleasant to be around. This is the most difficult time in our married life. We lost a baby girl at birth and now to loose our only other child. Can anyone explain why? I don't think so. But, life does go on, no matter how hard.
Tammy, is back in Germany. She has returned to her job and is trying to put her life in some kind of order. She returned because that has been home to them for the past four years and they were going to continue living there, because Gordon had gotten a job with an American Company working in Germany. However, I do look for her to return to the states sometime later this year. They had two cats, Angelica and Sally, but they are living with us until she comes back, so we now have three cats and a dog in the house. Of course, Fred our outside dog is still with us.

I'm sorry to be so depressing, but this is just not a good day.